Lyrics

Bazooka, 2013

At the Time
I could have done something
I could have walked away
I could have said anything
I didn’t have to stay
I could have thought more clearly
I could have changed my mind
But it seemed like such a good idea
At the time

I didn’t have to go there
Or try to be brave
I didn’t have to promise
But I relented and forgave
I didn’t have to tell you
Didn’t have to share my mind
But it seemed like such a good idea
At the time

You’ll probably never really know
These things I thought about
You probably wouldn’t even care
If the truth came out
I probably shouldn’t even save
A small place in my heart
For all the things I thought I knew
All the things I thought I knew
All the things I thought I knew

I didn’t have to take it
But I didn’t have to stop
And I didn’t have to like it
Though I did like it a lot
I didn’t have to show you
How you made me blind
But it seemed like such a good idea
At the time

You’ll probably never really know
These things I thought about
You probably wouldn’t even care
If the truth came out
I probably shouldn’t even save
A small place in my heart
For all the things I thought I knew
All the things I thought I knew
All the things I thought I knew

Painful to See
So what will it be?
After all, it’s fair enough
To lie enough to make it seem okay

So what will it be?
After all, in fairness to us both
Even you tried to get away

Thoughtless as I was
Repentless as I am
And it’s still painful
Painful to see
Painful to see
Everything you
Everything you’d do for me

So what will it be?
After all, it’s not as though I have
Any answers for you

So what will it be?
After all, there’s nothing I can say
That will change what you choose to do

Thoughtless as I was
Repentless as I am
And it’s still painful
Painful to see
Painful to see
Everything you
Everything you’d do for me

Hurry Up
I’ll see you when I see you
Keep your eyes peeled until then
You just play your cards right
And keep waiting on the good fight
Don’t waste your time on looking
I’m invisible to them

Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up ’cause I won’t wait for you
Hurry up ’cause I won’t wait

I’m no good at goodbyes
Don’t look at me like that
I’m making my break tonight
Guess you can come with if you like
If you slow me down I’ll leave you
At the drop of a hat

Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up because I’m waiting
We don’t have time to lose
Hurry up ’cause I won’t wait for you
Hurry up ’cause I won’t wait

Fall Tonight
This isn’t what I had in mind
But if you want I’ll play the part
Maybe you can think of something, something
Enough to warm this frozen heart

Come on, tell me just right, just right
I’m gonna fall fall fall tonight

Let you see my darkest wants
Let me see how you come apart
Everything is breaking, breaking
Right down to this empty heart

Keep on moving just right, just right
I’m gonna fall fall fall tonight
Keep on moving just right, right
I’m gonna fall fall fall tonight

Let me see your embers glow
Let you burn out all my scars
Everything is falling, falling
Right into this heavy heart

Come on, whisper just right, just right
I’m gonna fall fall fall tonight
Come on, whisper just right, right
I’m gonna fall fall fall tonight

Worn Down
Waxy lips
Waxy lips
Kiss your eyes
Shiny lids
Worn down

Flower pail
Flour pale
Scrape the skin
Tender shale
Worn down

Chest collapsed
Breathless stare
Stay awhile
Unaware
Bitter spice
Bloody Ice
Worn down

Bitter spice
Bloody ice

The Right Idea
I think he had the right idea
Tearing through the crowd just to see you
You get the sense that it was all out of spite
So what the hell am I doing with you tonight?

Jagged-tooth smile says they’re no one to trust
Caved in, heart racing, some kind of lust
But I don’t need this, I’m walking away
I don’t feel like begging you today

So
So you want
What you can’t have
‘Cause you’ve got nothing to give

You’ve made it clear that you’ll be here for a while
Saying sweet nothing like they’re going out of style
I don’t really care if you’re wasting your time
But you sure as hell aren’t gonna be wasting mine

It’s never gonna be the way you want it to be
You’re never gonna change and you’ll never change me
Aren’t you sick of this game
The one that you’ll never win
The one that ended before it could even begin

So
So you want
What you can’t have
‘Cause you’ve got nothing to give

Every Single Day
Something is changing
And I know it’s not good
You want to blame me?
Well, maybe you should

Does it make a difference who’s wrong or right?
Is it gonna matter who wins this fight?

‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single day
And there’s no way around it,
Hate seeing you this way
‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single night
And there’s no doubt about it
Something isn’t right
Something isn’t right

So you don’t want to tell me
You just can’t quite say
Well just spit it out now
‘Cause I’m not going away

Does it make a difference who’s wrong or right?
Is it gonna matter who wins this fight?

‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single day
And there’s no way around it,
Hate seeing you this way
‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single night
And there’s no doubt about it
Something isn’t right
Something isn’t right

Well I’ve got something to tell you
We’re just living to die
Are we spinning our wheels here
Or are we gonna try?

Does it make a difference who’s wrong or right?
Is it gonna matter who wins this fight?

‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single day
And there’s no way around it,
Hate seeing you this way
‘Cause I’m with you baby
Every single night
And there’s no doubt about it
Something isn’t right
Something isn’t right

Debauchery on Bradford St
Sometimes I think your eyes are blue
What matters isn’t always true
Bloody knuckles, on the make
I’d kiss you for a milkshake

Social pariah in blue jeans
That come apart right at the seams
The seatbelt strap is awful tight
Maybe I’ll see you some tonight

You always seemed so strange to me
Treasure trove of hostility
Easy come and easy go
I guess you already know

Cigarettes and tea and cake
I know I shouldn’t be awake
It’s too late tonight to see
The scars and dotage made of me

It’s so simple for you to
Forget the things I said to you
Easy come and easy go
I guess now you’ll never know

Whisper just one more time to me
The things I don’t quite seem to see
Easy come and easy go
The things I’ll never want to know

Something’s Out There
And I’m screaming out your name
But it seems the effort was in vain

I guess the problem is with me
I try so hard, but just can’t see
You say, “Oh ye of little faith”
I guess mine is just misplaced
I do want to believe
But it doesn’t work for me
You trust completely as you’re kneeling
But I just don’t get the feeling

Something’s out there
Something’s out there

Something’s out there
Something’s out there

I don’t relish the thought of being alone
Sometimes it chills me right to the bone

There’s no one looking out for me
Nothing’s righteous, nothing’s free
You say, “Oh ye of little faith”
I guess mine is just misplaced
I do want to believe
But it doesn’t work for me
You trust completely as you’re kneeling
But I just don’t get the feeling

Something’s out there
Something’s out there

Something’s out there
Something’s out there

So You’re Leaving Now
So you’re leaving now
It’s reality
Not some distant might-have been
Or a faint possibility
Sometimes I count the days
And wish they would stop
And sometimes I just can’t wait
For you to go

But sometimes I wonder
If there’s really anymore to say
And sometimes I wonder if I’m just trying to stall
Like my mumbling can frustrate time into place
Like my tears will rust its clockwork
And leave its hands still on its face

But that won’t happen and I really
Don’t want you to stay
I’ve known you’ve wanted to leave
Ever since I’ve known your name
And if it were up to me
I wouldn’t make it different
If it were up to me
I wouldn’t want you to change

So you’re leaving now
It’s reality
Not some distant might-have-been
Or a faint possibility
Sometimes I count the days
And wish they would

Little Heaven Big Sky, 2011

Resonate
So he came and went
No deeds to repent
Didn’t change anything:
Something taken, something owed me

Eyes that never raised
In a silent daze
Quiet and cowardly
What was it I ever did see?

Here we go again
There we had our chance
Though it’s not our fate
Something will always resonate

And so it goes
The true nature shows
Cut it out of my heart
No one else will even know

Watching myself bleed
Dripping endlessly
Something has to stop
You’ll never be the one I need

Here we go again
There we had our chance
Though it’s not our fate
Something will always resonate

Keep the apple
Take the blame
It will always
Be the same

Nothing to See Here
Don’t look so interested
Ain’t nothing to see
You know you gave it away
Don’t try to give it to me

I don’t want to hear it
And I don’t want to know
Anything about anything about you
I just want you to…

You know I already told you
You know what I’m going to say
I don’t want you to be near me
So just go away

I don’t want to hear it
And I don’t want to know
Anything about anything about you
So…

I don’t know why you expect something from me
I don’t owe you anything
There’s no good reason why you pin your problems on me
Don’t ask anything of me

Don’t look so dejected
You knew it all from the start
I didn’t ask for devotion
I didn’t ask for your heart

Play Along
I wonder if the’ll notice
Shred my callouses for you
You know I’ve laid my heart out,
Electric tape and super glue

Have you ever played this song?
I’ll tell you how it goes:
You and I will play along
Until everybody knows

They’re looking at you different
Think they might have figured out
Spent picks and missing patches
Do they know what it’s about?

Have you ever played this song?
I’ll tell you how it goes:
You and I will play along
Until everybody knows

I might have gotten sloppy
Maybe I want them to know
Baby, I’m no good at sharing
And three’s too many for me now

Sunless Realm
Purple veins pulse through thin skin
A veil lifts, you’re sinking in
Didn’t they tell you, “never give in, never give in”

The weakness comes, you can’t even see
Hear all the voices, don’t know how many
Didn’t they tell you, “you’d never be free, you’d never be free”

Here in the sunless realm, it’s easy to stay
But you can never get away

You can sense it, nothing is real
You can taste it, that make-believe feel
Didn’t they tell you, “she won’t keep a deal, she won’t keep a deal”

Here in the sunless realm, it’s easy to stay
But you can never get away

Anywhere with You
You lean against me in public
You know to me, it’s all the same
Watching your heavy eyes close slowly
As I sing you to sleep on a subway train

And this is just where I would like to be
Anywhere with you is fine with me

You say you want things to be different
I’m just tired of living in the past
I know you’ll always be there for me
And all you’d ever have to do is ask

And this is just where I would like to be
Anywhere with you is fine with me

If You Want To
Never trust a melody
They just sell things you don’t need
For me, it’s take it or leave it
For you, it’s take it and leave
I guess I’m still that naive

Bloody lip, a broken pair
Wishing for what isn’t there
Go ahead, push it together
Make it better again
I guess it’s fun to pretend

If you want to, you can touch me
Tame this heart you have enslaved
If you want to, you can heal me
But I’m not one to be saved

Throw my treasures to the fire
Poets make the best of liars
Is there anything you can think of?
Anything you want from me?
You can take what you can see

If you want to, you can touch me
Tame this heart you have enslaved
If you want to, you can heal me
But I’m not one to be saved

Disappear for Me
Disappear for me
Turn your back so I don’t see
The things I shouldn’t want
Your eyes haunt me

I don’t want you to be honest
Unless you promise it won’t hurt
I felt the flame of desire
But I’m not looking to get burnt

Pour into my soul
Fill me with some kind of faith
Make me believe
Make me see this isn’t all just a waste

I don’t want you to be honest
Unless you promise it won’t hurt
I felt the flame of desire
But I’m not looking to get burnt

Just a Memory
Are you wishing for it,
Are you waiting all alone?
Are you thinking it was,
Are you hoping they were wrong?
Are you running after,
Are you tasting the dream?
Are you even listening?

Am I wishing for it,
Am I hoping this will end?
Am I breaking here,
Or am I still willing to bend?
Am I chasing after,
Am I willing to
Give up everything just for you?

Sometimes I swear I can,
Sometimes I can feel you near
Sometimes I just have to,
Sometimes I wonder, are you here?
Sometimes I can’t stand it
Sometimes I don’t know
Will you take me with if you go?

I know all I’ll be
I know I’m just a memory

Baby for You
Maybe there’s nothing to save
And maybe I’m just playing brave
But maybe for you, I’ve done this for you

Maybe there’s nothing to tell
Or maybe no one will listen well
But maybe for you, I’ve kept this for you

Heavy in our hearts, I can feel the weight
Words which will destroy, they lie calmly in wait
Secrets you must hold to keep them satisfied
Secrets I will keep, the secrets and the lies,
All to keep you by my side.

Maybe I had to take the risk
Or maybe I could not resist
But baby, for you, I do this for you

Such a Tease
Stars in our eyes, X’s on our hands
Come in closer, repeat on command

You’ve got to know what I want
‘Cuz you’re such a tease
If you haven’t figured out by now,
Jesus Christ, you’re so naive

Plastic bottles and cigarette butts
Effects over quality as such

You’ve got to know what I want
‘Cuz you’re such a tease
If you haven’t figured out by now,
Jesus Christ, you’re so naive

The grave’s a good place for a secret like this
Indecision sealed sweet with a kiss

Open your eyes and see for yourself:
This behavior could get you topshelved

You’ve got to know what I want
‘Cuz you’re such a tease
If you haven’t figured out by now,
Jesus Christ, you’re so naive

Open Your Eyes
My intentions are pure
Theirs are clouded by lies
I’m not here to hurt you
Or to patronize, but

When will you open your eyes?
When will you realize?

You know they’re out to get you
You know who you should trust
But you can’t help believing,
Leaving me in disgust

When will you open your eyes?
When will you realize?

If you don’t want to hear
If you don’t want to see
If you don’t want to know
Then don’t ask me

I can’t play this game
Do what you’ve got to do
We both know you’re not helpless
And I’m not going to save you

When will you open your eyes?
When will you realize?

Little Heaven Big Sky
We’re not the same, are we?
I knew it wouldn’t last
My future before me
All you see is past

The stars don’t lie to me
Do they tell you the same?
No need to feel guilty
There’s no one here to blame

Little piece of heaven in that great big sky

It wasn’t meant to be
But it was worth the fight
I know you’ll think of me
When you see the starry night

Little piece of heaven in that great big sky

Jealous Creatures EP, 2011

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Coffee Stains
Boston is so far away
I think the entire thing is gay
Coffee stains and whipped cream mess
Do you think this is the best?

We know you want us to be real tough
Go kill for money, for, like, useful stuff
Forty nights and forty days
Do you think this is okay?

Plane trips are dangerous
And diseases ill
I guess dual psychosis
Has its thrills

Faith in Man?
All the messianic promises that you’re coming back
Seem to feed the fleeting faith that I sorely lack
But seeing as I’ve found neither cause nor call,
Is it better to trust blindly or simply to trust not at all

All you’ve given to believe in is the fact that you’ll be leaving
But is it shameful to say I might not miss you anyway?

So I’ll make atonement to you for all my sins
And I’ll let you be the judge and try my blood and skin
Because I stand condemned of trying to bring you down
With my filthy hands on your heavenly wings and my leaden feet stuck on the ground

All you’ve given to believe in is the fact that you’ll be leaveing
But is it shameful to say I might not miss you anyway?
Between the mercy you’ve shown others and the castigation that I’ve suffered
If this is what they call heaven, maybe I’m not in need of saving

I’ve made my penance, but still no forgiveness from you
So what in the hell do you want me to do?
It leads me to question how useful a savior could be
When you can’t even redeem yourself to me

Andate
Spitting curses at the sky
The angels all look down and sigh
Trying to bind heaven to earth
And angry at all for all it’s worth

And I take…

I count devils to fall asleep
To whom should I pray my soul to keep
The angels stay out of my sight
It’s gonna be another only night

And I take…

When I Put You Down
Mr. Mr, where could you be?
You left me here all alone
All is uneventful, I want you so badly
I know you are not my own

I try to get out, I try to fight it,
But when I put you down, I stand you up

Won’t get in a fight, won’t even bother
I know I can’t win this match
She’s better for you, I’ll go to another
I can’t play you like that

I try to get out, I try to fight it,
But when I put you down, I stand you up…

Take me as I am, let me abuse you,
You are the device of my education
Song and rhyme, I need you all the time
Just can’t work in moderation

Eggs Alone
I’ve been living off sweet tea, nicotine and black coffee
Cigarettes and turpentine are a favorite high of mine
You and I and the sing along, getting all the lyrics wrong
Sitting still, watching the tide, rotting out from the inside

After all is said and done, I’m not sure I’m having fun
But the sad beauty of your face just might prove my saving grace
Drunken kisses on the floor, shiver, shaken, want some more
Too much champagne at one time, still I think I’m doing fine

Whoa oh, like I said
I don’t need the aggravation
Whoa oh, like I said
So much for this vague translation